I wish I had stayed in bed this morning

Yes, I did get up this morning to get my bedroom ready for my nephew and his wife to spend Christmas day. Then I got the car ready ...

What I wasn't ready for wast: they didn't come for Christmas which made my sister cry, then I cried and then my sister and I said angry words to one another for no reason.

I have a clean room and new pillows and a fracture in the relationship with my sister that might never go away. I feel truly miserable for the first time in many months. I created my part of this mess and I am so remorseful it hurts.

Can I just sleep till 2011, please. Oh wait, I almost forgot ... the nephew and his wife are supposed to come tomorrow. Won't hold my breath. Will do my best to smile.

Sunday ... just right

My sister is recuperating quite well. This makes me extremely happy.

After assisting with her overnight medications, I allowed myself the luxury of staying in bed reading for the better part of the morning. Had some tofu blintzes for breakfast but the coffee left much to be desired. I will change that today by purchasing some delicious coffee.

I have just a few chores/errands scheduled for today: poop scoop (yes, I love my dog in spite of this duty.) Maintain my spa, water the garden. I should also do a little bit of grocery shopping to keep healthful food on hand.

Major part of the day left for reading, playing games online with sis and watching videos. Then it is time to clean up and prepare for another week of right livelihood.

Ahhh ... savoring each moment.

Remembrances of Short Periods of Joy

Sometimes all we have at the end of the day is a remembrance of a short period of joy. A time from our past that is so joyful, so vivid, it can be relived immediately. The sights, sounds, feelings and passions. All right there just a fraction away from the cosmic heart.

Once upon a time it was a window looking over the ocean in Hana Hawaii; it is the sound of a tree falling in the redwoods and the ground shaking; climbing up the middle of a waterfall; waking up in a tent with a day full of promise ahead. Receiving the exact same Christmas card I gave and laughing so hard it was soon rolling on the floor time.

Oh well, back to today.

Friday ... Holiday Weekend

My sister had surgery today. She is home now and resting.

My shadow self tried to usurp my authority with a migraine headache early in the morning. But I would have none of that. I squashed it with medicine and an ice pack and was ready to the go to the hospital right on time.

I would love to believe I am an enlighted soul but I guess I have a way to go since my martyr is trying so hard to be ill and get attention. Ha Ha! Say I. I have your number, martyr. Here is a positive task to use your energy instead. Go do it!

An Inspiring Thought the Men in my Life should know...

My body is not as shapely as it used to be. But I know so much more now about what I can do with it.

Evil grin.

I got up today to be able to pay my mortgage and other bills. Now, please don't take that wrong. It is a good thing because I have wonderful, snug home in a beautiful area of California. In fact, it is so pretty, right now a hummingbird had built a nest and is sitting on her eggs in my garden. I think that is pretty special.

So, my right livelihood keeps me and my sister living in this lovely home with good food and cable tv. I am so blessed.

I got up today because I am not one of the unfortunate people in Haiti and, if they can get up and carry on, so can I.

So I went off to the chaos of the re-organization of my job and will continue to smile. I know what I am doing and will wait till the new supervisors catch on.

What got you out of bed today?