Taking Time for Me

I have five more days in my winter break, staycation. Except for going through a pile of stuff lugged home from my last class room, to decide what will go to the next class room, I am going to REST. The caretaker will take care of herself for a few days. Whew. Just do whatever I please, whenever I please ... including nothing If I please. Oh, and a short visit with some friends on New Years day.

Emotions

A very emotional day ... in my room now watching "Auntie Mame" to recover my calm. Yes, I had a good long cry downstairs where no one could hear. The one who is strong for everyone else needed to be weak. Nite all.

Tired ... need sleep ...

I am watching "It's a Wonderful Life" to bring my holiday spirits back. I am tired. Need to pick up my nephew at the airport early so I should be asleep. The last two months have been especially tough ... and I am one tough cookie. I made it through all ... early morning drives to take my sister to her appointments ... waiting on pins and needles about whether I would lose my job ... I got through it all. And all is turning out to be just fine. Really, just fine. I am the energizer bunny, I just keep going and going. Or as Dory Previn once put it, "dancing, dancing, smiling, smiling ..." But no one notices. Good night. The dance continues at 6am

Another Day in Limbo

I still do not know for sure what my status at work will become. This is of concern to me ... and yet, I am hopeful and doing my best every day. And how are you?

Confessing to my human-ness

Not that I ever denied my human-ness, but now ore than ever, I am feeling my human frailty and misgivings. I do the "I AM" meditations and keep on the positive side of life and yet find myself at a loss to understand "why me." But then again, even Mother Teresa once said: "I know God will never give me anything I can't handle. I just wish he didn't trust me so much." Onward. With a smile and hope.

Everything is changing at work again. Just when I dared to to think that I was solid for some time to come, I was informed that I will be chopped down to part time at the end of the is month. I have applied for full time at a new campus that is being built and waiting to hear the results is difficult. Frankly I am at a total loss to grok this. Here I am again on the precipace and I know I did not take the path to a cliff. LOL Send me good wishes, because I am trying to keep a home for me and my sis right now. Until she is well enough to be independent, it is me on the line. Ok, back to my precipice. Carefully backing up and looking for the alternate path that I must have missed.

Three days ... one more ahead: project rest!

I was blessed with four days off. I used some of the time off to take care of my traditional AMA wellness. I used some more to keep the home clean and lay in a store of foods my sis can use. I spent some magic time on Friday night listening to Dr. Wayne Dyer in Pasadena. Thank you Wayne, I got some re-energized messages that were very right for me. I spent less than magic time getting to and returning home from the event with Dr. Dyer. I must revisit the idea of ANY good reason to be on the freeways heading to Los Angeles on a Friday night. One of the reasons I relocated to Orange County was the ability to get OFF the road and enjoy my home and garden. So, tomorrow is Sunday. Home, garden, caring for my tropical fish and spending precious time with my sis is the plan for the day. How goes your time???

Next trip around the sun begins...

My birthday has come and gone almost un-noticed. That seems quite normal considering the overall tone of the year I am in. A friend texted me wishing me a great "new trip around the sun." I had never thought of a year that way before. Works for me. And so ... back to work tomorrow. October sliding in to a finish. (Playing the background right now is "When October Goes" by Barry Manilow. Even if you are not a Fanilow, listen to it.) Greeting you from spaceship, Earth....

"Recalculating"

My GPS is a marvelous little device. If I am headed off to a new destination, it finds the best route for me. If there is road work ahead and I can not make an expected turn, it politely says "recalculating" and lets me know how to best continue my journey. In life there are emany road blocks, lane changes and unexpected turns. I am now "recalculating" and moving ahead. How about you?

Tuesday ... aha!

Tuesday is certainly better than Monday. I had an aha moment when preparing for work today: Begin again! Here is an illustration from one of my favorite artists. Find our more about her ... she is The Cosmic Happy Ass.

Time Has Flown

Oh my goodness, 3/4 of a year have blown by since I last posted. I am happy to report that it is due to a very busy lifestyle full of right livelihood, fun times with sis and good friends. I am listening to my class mull over their homework questions together. This sun is still bright outside in Orange County and I can see the vista all they way to the mountains. Settling into my new schedule quite nicely, although the fatigue level on the weekends is just a bit more than before. This will even out, I am sure. I trust all is well in your world