Another Week Forward

I interviewed for a part time position ... it won't pay all the bills but I am a firm believer that something is better than nothing and it will give me time to continue looking for the perfect thing. I went to two networking events with women in business and have ended the week feeling much more positive. Smiling more is a good thing. Weekend here ... onward and upward.

Positivity ...

Lots of little steps taken this week. Feeling more positive that there is light at the end of the tunnel now and I am going to be fine. This poem expresses it for the week.

Week's end ...

I have made it through another week and come to this Friday with a more positive attitude. Am I fully back to where I was, far from it. After being so thoroughly slammed, I was shaken to the core. I have always believed that my good deeds will be rewarded and I was not, at least not in the immediate moments of loss. Do I believe that my good reward is coming, well, I am getting there. Whenever I get a fearful and negative thought, I am getting faster at replacing it with my "I am" mantra. I still let the tears flow freely but I am finding more genuine smiles returning. And so my slow but steady return to a good life goes.

Slow and steady ...

I am slowly finding a balance to my life. I still have moments of sadness and fear which I immediately replace with positive thoughts or affirmations. I take a step forward every day. I have a small group of wonderful friends. I keep busy at night so that the house isn't so empty. I am taking the health steps I know I must. I am experiencing more smiling moments and finding days easier. Is this where I expected to be, heck now. But here I am and I am determined to make the best of everything and RISE.

focus ... refocus ...

I have made it through several medical tests and the results show that, while there is something causing back pain, it is not fatal. this whole medical scare has had a positive effect in a very strange way: it has put my loss of a job and subsequent job hunt in a new light. I mean, I am alive to do the job hunt! I am alive, I have everything to gain and I have the energy to write the next chapter of my life. Well, ok, one more minor medical test ... but I already have plans for the next small steps in my job search lined up. I am that I am ...