Contentment

I am not at the place of happiness yet. I am comparing how I feel today with how I felt two years ago ... before I lost my sister and the job that I loved. That is when I woke up everyday filled with joy and happiness and did not need to question if I was truly happy. I know that I was. After tragedy and betrayal and grievous loss, I sunk to a place of such despair I wasn't sure I would emerge. Fortunately, I could always cling to my friends like a liferaft and they would help me through one more squall, one more day of endless rain, one more day searching for happiness. Today I on my way to happy and the feeling I have is content. I am contented with who I am and what I have right now ... and with that feeling of contentment I have the ability to strive for happy again. I did not have to stay stuck in the pain and I will not stay stuck in contented. However, contented does feel pretty good. What got you up today?